You're Not From Here

[ladybirdcarina]

Title:You're Not from Here
Pair:kyusaeng
Rating:PG
Disclaimer:not mine because people keep getting in my way.../pouts
Summary:I've waited for you to appear; to take my breath away and make me weep...


This is a companion to the fic Gallery, only from YoungSaeng's perspective this time.  Thanks to the ever amazing aidenrose for the beta~!

For the song, simply click here.  I suggest opening in a separate tab~



I don't know what is going on
You turn around and touch my heart
A silent moment speaks the truth
Something has happened all at once
It should have scared me in advance
But I was falling in those eyes of yours

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Another showing. There had been so many in the last year that I honestly couldn't distinguish one from the next. I was not a fan of art in the least, yet I played my part perfectly, providing my lover with the lovely and submissive arm candy as I had done time and time again.

This time, however, was different.

You were new, about my own age, and was as interested in the art you were surrounded with as I myself was. Your caramel colored hair was well styled, one dark eye visible while the other was curtained by your bangs, drawing my attention even more. You were dressed impeccably in a pair of khaki slacks and a well fitted white dress shirt, sleeves rolled to mid forearm and collar unbuttoned.

When you looked up and met my eyes, something seemed to resonate. I had never felt such a thing before, and was surprised that I wasn't more afraid of the foreign feeling.

The arm around my waist reminded me where I was and I had to hold back a shiver as I was pulled away from those entrancing eyes that had captured me so, though I had no idea why.

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And so
Fear was gone
I knew there was nothing else
I'd ever want

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I knew that he was unfaithful.

It was impossible not to know with how obvious he was. I had grown used to the looks of pity from passersby who witnessed his wandering hands or his open flirting.

I had never seen, however, the look you had given me. There was no pity; just sorrow...

...and what appeared to be the look of someone who wanted to do something.

I didn't know if it was just wishful thinking on my part, but that look had set my heart more at ease than I could ever recall it being.

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I know you
You're not from here
I've waited for you to appear
To take my breath away
And make me weep
You're not from here
Not from this here and now
Just a touch of yours
And I fly... and I fly... and I fly

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KyuJong.

It was a name that slid from my mouth effortlessly. I bowed and quietly responded with my own, fighting back the slight blush as my name rolled off your tongue. You were a studio musician fresh from the country. Wishing to learn what you could about Seoul, a friend recommended this particular show, to which you hesitantly agreed.

As we spoke, words flowing without awkwardness, I felt like we had known each other longer than only a few short minutes. When the sudden look of shock and disgust crossed through your eyes, I sighed, smiling tiredly. I knew what you had seen, since I saw it daily.

Your anger caught me by surprise. It was as if you truly cared, something I had long since forgotten the feeling of, having experienced none of it since meeting him. I felt my breath catch, so overwhelmed by the feelings that I so desperately missed without even realizing.

I craved to feel your touch, even if it was a simple brush of hands or shoulders. I wondered if your touch would make me feel as filthy as his did, and doubted it.

Just speaking to you made me feel so free that I nearly wept.

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I can't get used to missing you
If this is how it's gotta be
I need an angel to watch over me
No one can hold the hands of time
But I can hold you in my mind
Over and over like a melody

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After that, I would look for you at every show I was forced to attend, though the more I saw you, the less it took to get me to attend them. I needed you like air, rescuing me from the suffocating hold he had on me. You watching over me kept me from losing my mind to the utter despair and emptiness as time refused to pause to let me adjust.

Your face and your words ran through my mind, as if on constant repeat, reassuring me that there truly were people who still cared about a wounded soul such as mine.

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For now
I'll stand still
For now
I'll be filled by the memory of your skin

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What should I have done?

Just being with him was slowly killing me.

The only thing keeping me from giving up completely was the feeling of the one moment where you brushed your hand against mine as I was pulled from your company.

I needed to feel it again.

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I know you
You're not from here
You don't belong to lies and tears
The greatness of your soul
Makes me weep
You're not from here
Not from this here and now
Just a touch of yours
And I fly... and I fly... and I fly

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I couldn't do it. I couldn't let him crush me any more than he already had. Looking up at the peaceful painting across from the bench I was sitting on, I tried my hardest to calm my troubled mind.

It was only when I felt your presence beside me that I was able to relax my mind. I desperately needed the peace that only you could give me. Closing my eyes, I slowly gave in and allowed myself to lean on you, resting my head against your strong shoulder. Your kindness finally brought the tears to my eyes and I allowed them to fall as I soaked in your kindness and everything that you were.

You didn't belong in this world of falsities and lies.

You were far too great a person.

Taking my smaller hand in yours, you simply held me close, projecting everything you wanted to say in that simple jesture.

Your touch was all I needed to climb out of the abyss I'd been living in.

I was finally free.

Comments

[rubi-rene.livejournal.com]

This was really beautiful ;~;
KyuSaeng is ♥

[renichifreak.livejournal.com]

thank you, bb~!!!!!

/hugs

I was super nervous about this, so yay~